More than to be memorable
I just want to remember:
The first baptism of drizzle
The first smell of wet earth
The first embrace, and your skin
like the rain-slickened road after
the softest precipitous caress
after so many days of drought
The way the rolling hills would look in the morning
with the dew lying like a blanket of sighs
running with the reach of an avalanche
Not because I have forgotten
Never that
But I would like to remember as if
for the first time
To be humbled by the unspeakable joy
of knowing there is more beauty yet for me in this world
if no other
I would very much like to hold you as I did that night
where I couldn’t fix any of it
but you let me hold you anyway
I would like to kneel at your feet again M________
And take your calloused hands in mine
and listen to the meteors of silence
hurtling between us
Bringing us closer to oblivion
I saw the end of days there
in the abyss of your irises
Please
I want to go back
Kopano Maroga is a performance artist, writer, and cultural worker. They are the co-founder of the dance, movement and embodied politics publication and performance platform ANY BODY ZINE (anybodyzine.org.za). They are currently pursuing their masters in Live Art, Interdisciplinary and Public Art through the Institute for Creative Arts at the University of Cape Town, South Africa. They very much believe in the power of love as a weapon of mass construction.