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Restraint – Hibaq Osman

when i ask who’s loving you?

don’t want no names, no

no location or proximity,

no train station meet-cute or dating app eye emoji

 

i’m really asking “how does it feel?”

receiving a love not as eclipsing,

i’m asking how clear is the rain

on the other side?

 

when the tune of the hour dissolves

house parties turn into webbed limbs

i’ve seen you wide-armed, shifting space

between snake charmers and wilted butterflies

 

i wonder if you knew i could do that too?

that in theory (if only just for you)

i am capable the way a cat is

slink without reason, entering lives as we please

just enough teeth to leave a mark

 

on the thick of my tongue i want to ask

what animal are they?

those who loved you so quietly

that nobody knew

 

i am still collecting questions

headphones filled with half-

recordings, how the one time

you said my name / sweet as silence

made me vow never to wipe a device again

 

now, i am questioning who loves you

out loud, between mistakes and fajr

with no reply

and no damage to my spirit


Hibaq Osman is a UK based Somali artist whose main work has been in poetry. Hibaq was first published in 2015 by Out-Spoken Press with her debut pamphlet A Silence You Can Carry. In 2017 and 2019 she released two online pamphlets, the heart is a smashed bulb and CARVINGS. Her first full poetry collection where the memory was was published by Jacaranda Books as a part of their #Twentyin2020 initiative. She is a proud member of OCTAVIA POETRY COLLECTIVE.