In: Anthology

After Suicide – Àkpà Arinzechukwu

 

When you died mum moved your bed,
I took your place.

It was not difficult changing the television channel
from Keeping Up with the Kardashians to Black-ish.

At night your dog kept barking,
we thought it was learning to accept the heat.

We wanted happiness, you wanted flowers.
& when the chrysanthemum germinated

you asked if I had ever thought of losing something,
I said no, because denial eases the pain.

I once lost my ping pong ball, it was found in your chest.
We are always wanting what we can’t have.

At the prom, I pretended I was you just to dance
with Judith, the one that never looked at me.

This night I write your name first
& I can’t… all over the paper

Hoping you won’t be found in me.
The leaves scatter, decomposing.


Akpa Arinzechukwu is a twenty-two-year-old Nigerian genderqueer. They have work in Saraba, Transition, New Contrast, Sou’wester, Brittle Paper, and elsewhere. They are the author of the poetry pamphlet, City Dwellers (Splash of Red).

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